I now believe there is a reason why person number one is wonderful at Art, science, and history. Why person number two is good at math, grammar and economics. Why person number one, though having an IQ over 100, can not get a grasp on mathematics and why person number two, whom has an IQ over 100, can’t grasp the concept of how to draw a cube.
Perhaps it’s because we are blocked.
I will use me as an example. I LOVEEEEE to learn. Love love love it. I have probably more than 200 hours of college. When in front of the TV I’m googling new ideas, how to do “its”, and facts on things. When watching TV I go nuts if I can’t find something educational or something I can learn from. So in general I “believe” I’m pretty smart (*lol* Course I could be wrong). I’ve gone through school some for engineering, Science, criminal justice, psychology, art…you name it. You heard of book worms? Well I’m a learn worm. Love knowing things and learning things. (hence the reason when I dream something that I believe someone is trying to teach me I post it. You might learn something….and you might get the puzzle before I do.)
Yet, as many of you know, I’m horrible…just horribly at grammar. I have english teachers in my family…and I’m still horrible. I’ve taken more English, grammar, etc then anyone I know…and I’m still horrible. I had two separate professors tell me one day I’d be the best writer. One told me she knew I’d be famous and wanted to be my editor and wanted me to make sure I never forgot her so I would call her up in the future. She stated “You need an editor. You’re a wonderful writer but your grammar, punctuation, word structure…you suck.”
Science, I wanted to be a scientist and artist when I grew up. Lovedddd science..I wanted to change the world and save people. What kept me…math. I could apply math in science…generally speaking. If it was in those long graphs I was wonderful at it. You put a beaker in my face and tell me to measure out something….well……can’t do. I don’t have a college degree because most colleges require you to pass math. I’ve taken math I think almost 10 times in college, different professors, different colleges….even went back and took remedial….to no avail. Hence the reason why I have been in college my entire life and no degree…just due to one math class…I get math…I do. But I’m unable to retain in. No matter how hard.
I’m like a child in a candy store when I get it. Bright eyed and so excited…”...I get it. I see it…how easy. Why could I not get it. I remember …it’s so easy.”
Then...*BANG*.”…Ummmm, I had it….why is it not working? I can’t remember….this makes no since something must be missing..”
Why is this? I now believe it’s a way our world keeps from slinging forward to fast. I believe when you or your child struggles in an area they will eventually get it, or just get it enough to pass the subject and then later on try to avoid any jobs or subjects dealing with that particular subject. (I know I did) That’s why you yourself know there are areas your just not that good at. That is why I’m not a scientist right now…that’s why I’m not an engineer right now.
Math, I’m so frustrated with it that I’m a firm believer that our math is wrong. I think there’s a number missing between the first few numbers. Could I be right?
Most Math whizzes will tell you if I was wrong then everything would be chaos and not work. I want to know math. I’m fantastic with patters and people, in life, I can connect the dots. I know if I was great at math I could do amazing connections and solve many things. But…..I….can’t…and damn our school systems saying you can’t get a degree unless you pass match classes. I figured by the time I die I’ll have around 500 hrs college..and no degree due to the rules.
I believe my grammar and spelling is horrible because it keeps people from taking me serious.
Case and point George Bush…
…even today people are shaking their heads saying he was stupid, should not have been president…etc due to his grammar being so horrible. You know as well as I do he probably had a wonderful educational background. You know as well as I do he didn’t grow up in the slums…there’s no reason for him to have any problems correct?…But fate has it that there are some people who suddenly will turn on anyone in position when that persons grammar is lacking. It’s not their fault…it’s probably their downfall like math is mine. Their programmed that way. I meet a guy one time..we were perfect for each other. We believed the same, we thought the same, we had the same goals. I was so excited because never ever in my life had I meet someone like me, especially a guy. We had goals, plans, we could plan everything together…we were gonna be a force to recon with……then my grammar got in the way. You could tell his sudden excitement was crushed. You could see the gears running in his head then doubt suddenly rise. Once again, though it made me angry, it wasn’t his fault. Sometimes a couple can accomplish too much together so his downfall is to look at people who’s not perfect in speech as inferior….which makes him inferior. “Never under-estimate your apponent”….and he does…
I can meet someone and their eyes suddenly grow round with wonder as we discuss things…then I’ll say something and I lose them. I’ve climbed up the latter in my job…and I’m still climbing. I think my lack of spelling and grammar slows my climb..because the world does not want me in charge right now…..and likely never. Because I know I’ll change the world and so do my loyal followers who say they would follow me to the end of the world. That alone shows you I’ll struggle to get any further…..so slow is the latter….
I’m trying to get there and I can’t. Just because grammar, Spelling, sentence structure. Remember I have over 200 hrs college…went to one of the best school districts in the United States during that time…..and still math, spelling, grammar….horrible. Just horrible.
So what is it your kept from?
What is it that the world is trying to slow you down?
What do you feel you could have changed?